spirituality – I Awakened Like This

Come back, Cassidy

I woke up face down on the floor in a pool of blood with my underwear around my ankles. The last thing I remembered was being woken in the middle of the night by the wetness of my blood-soaked pajamas, then wobbling down the stairs to the bathroom where I sat on the toilet sobbingContinue reading “Come back, Cassidy”

Shadow Self

When we accept and embrace the parts of ourselves that we previously rejected and shamed, we are practicing a loving surrender to what is and a transmutation of our deepest fears into a recognition, reclamation and fulfillment of our deepest desires. In the paradoxical duality of our human predicament, our spirits long to experience allContinue reading “Shadow Self”

Your Higher Self

You know your higher self. She is the one you picture when you think about how you will be better, richer, thinner, more confident, more successful in the future. She embodies who you want to be and the best of who you are. And she’s already in you. Your job is to connect with herContinue reading “Your Higher Self”

Desire

Everything we desire is already available to us as soon as we define it. In the field of infinite possibilities, anything we can imagine is already available to us. Just as a child can conjure a whole world where they can be anything they want to be and make anything happen, so can we asContinue reading “Desire”

Transmutation

Pain is sacred. Just as Christ suffered on the cross, died and was reborn, so does pain offer us a chance for growth and renewal. Pain is a sign of healing. We instinctively try to avoid it, shove it down, numb it, blame others for it, etc., but only by going right through it canContinue reading “Transmutation”

Communication

Religions are based on spiritual messages filtered through human channels, each with their own backstories and biases. As the messages manifest in the physical world, there are bound to be details that are specific to that human’s framework of experience and understanding. Their life experiences will color how they translate the messages, the result beingContinue reading “Communication”

Hero

If you’re asking, who am I to change the world? The answer is, you are the only one who can. You are the one we have been waiting for. You are the hero of the story. You hold the power. Not just in a metaphorical sense. It is all up to you. You must ownContinue reading “Hero”

Awkward Grace

I have spent much of my life trying to look like a put-together, polished, professional person. I have tried to hide any insecurities and avoided situations and conversations that make me feel uncomfortable or awkward. One of those subjects is spirituality. It feels like a touchy subject. I have qualms about bringing it up withContinue reading “Awkward Grace”

Intuition

I still remember standing in my garage by myself in Culver City, a suburb of LA, about 3 months pregnant, and out of nowhere, feeling a quiet thud of knowing: it’s a boy. There was no element of surprise or even excitement. It’s was just like, Oh, it’s a boy. Cool. And that was that,Continue reading “Intuition”

Antidote

Last night I dreamt of a friend who had betrayed me. She made a heartfelt apology to me. I forgave her and hugged her really tight. Then, I noticed Joe looking around us anxiously. We were outside at night and there were a lot of people around. It was like a downtown area. I askedContinue reading “Antidote”