To be honest, I like duality. I like the yin and yang, the masculine and feminine. I like the process of discovery, learning, teaching and growing. I dig the diversity of experience, the bittersweet feeling of life. It’s an adventure, a rollercoaster, a movie that touches your heart, a song that makes you cry. Am I ready to ascend if I still enjoy the triumphs and tribulations of life? Or is that part of it? I already have the ruby slippers on. I can use them anytime. And yet I follow the yellow brick road to my home in order to gain the experiences that will unlock the power within me to get there. It’s linear and non-linear all at the same time.
The thing is I like business. I act like it’s too much work, but the truth is, I enjoy digging into something and figuring it out. In fact, my mind needs something to latch onto, something to work on, or I would be bored out of my skull. I like the satisfaction of getting results, but I need the actual work. I am not just in it for the results. I love the challenge. Does accepting this mean that I will always be pushing a rock up a hill? I can also accept the fruits of my labor and enjoy time off, right? I would probably end up starting another business or project. Down time is not really my thing. Sometimes I think I’m addicted to the struggle. It makes me feel important, like I’m doing something.
The key is not to resist my love of work, but just to enjoy the ride without the attachment to any specific outcome. I can pursue goals, desire things, and yet not have my self worth tied into the results. It’s OK to be ambitious. And yet I can observe the effect of that ambition on myself. As in meditation, even while the mind runs rampant, I can observe from a place of pure consciousness. Where would we be without duality, relativity, polarity, black and white? There would be no definition, no contrast, and therefore no experience. Duality is the core of our existence. And yet, the paradox is that we are here to know one-ness in our world of duality. The key to the kingdom is that we are one experiencing duality. We are the giver, the receiver and the gift.