Stop Trying So Hard

“There is no more effort required to demand actualization of your highest desires than is required to accept misery and poverty.”

Bob Proctor

Granzie, my grandmother who passed away last year, was in my dream last night. I was sitting with Mum, and Mum was talking about her calendar planning system. I was raving at how organized she is. Then I became aware that Granzie was sitting across the table, and I invited her into the conversation. Her face was beaming and beautiful. She was kind of giggling and lightheartedly teasing Mum and me about our planning discussion. I don't remember what words were said, only the feel of it. It was kind of like, "Oh yeah, keep on planning! You're in control, ha!" She was genuinely amused. It's funny because she was such a planner. She always liked to have a structured itinerary even on vacations. It was cute and it felt great to see her so well. 

I seem to have formed the belief that love is contingent on accomplishments. I’ll have to dig into that belief next. As I’ve grown, I’ve tried hard at everything. It’s been a source of pride. Yet maybe I don’t have to try so hard to be successful, to be loved, to be worthy. I am worthy. I am loved. I am successful. Breathe in, breathe out. Love what is. Stop trying to change it all the time. It’s become a habit: restlessness, dissatisfaction, the need for control of the future. Yet all is unraveling in perfect timing. And all is there for the taking. Simply open up to receive. I’ve been worried about what I’m meant to do, trying to figure out my mission, my purpose. And how do I accomplish this and financial security? Such a puzzle to figure out. 

In my heart, though, I feel everything happening. I trust the process even though I don’t see exactly how the details will unfold. There is a plan. My higher self has got this. I don’t have to know everything right now. I’m sure I will keep trying, yet I can practice releasing the worry, the attachment to the outcome. I can have faith, surrender to my higher self, and enjoy the journey that much more.