Pain is not all bad. It can be transmuted into beauty. It’s where you know you are alive, it’s the essence of all life. You become fully present, fully immersed in your being, aware of every sensation, emotional and physical, living in the moment. I feel therefore I am. I felt that on Christmas Day. I felt like I had the worst PMS, cramps, moodiness, depressed feeling. And yet somehow, I transmuted it. I stepped through it, reveled in it, wallowed in it and found clarity and peace. Pain is a gift. Without it, we would never know pleasure, art, compassion, connection. On this dimension, pain is a sweet instrument of deliverance and redemption. We know God when we are in pain.
We think of Heaven as a place where everything is perfect and good, and there is no evil or anything bad of any kind. But what if Heaven is actually a state of being where you accept all that is, the bad along with the good? When we fully understand our trauma is also our best gift, we are healed and redeemed. When we realize our suffering has purpose and meaning, we transmute it into grace. We turn pain into power. We turn fear into love. Jesus had to die on the cross to give his greatest gift. There has to be dark for there to be light. So then, maybe Heaven is not the absence of darkness but the making of peace with it.
Eckhart Tolle talked about transmuting the pain body – ie. Accepting the darkness and bringing it to light instead of fighting it. He advises to make the now moment your ally even if it’s seemingly unpleasant. Do not judge it. This reminded me of years ago, when Cassidy was Skylar’s age, I realized that there are pros and cons to everything. At this time, I was practicing self-hypnosis and was starting to learn to master my mind. This deep knowing of the existence of pros and cons to everything led me to practice always recognizing this in every moment, even the unpleasant ones. And it was transformative. Now, instead of jumping to a negative judgment of any given circumstance, I immediately looked for and found the positive side. It was always there, once I sought it out. Every cloud has a silver lining. And as you focus on that lining, it seems the cloud even disappears, and the light is all you can see.
Pain, I love you. You clutch me in your grip. You squeeze the juice out of me. You show me who I am. You teach me humility, strength, endurance and compassion. You turn me inside out And its deepest darkness, My soul becomes its own light You're a mirror through which I connect with the world.