HERE AND NOW

Inner fulfillment precedes outer success. When I truly understood and embraced the truth that it is always now, and there is only now, the present moment, and I lived for that, the outer world fell into place. I fully stepped into this realization early this week. Of course, I knew it intellectually and yet I only now really get it. Yesterday, we found out our show premieres on PlutoTV. 

Now is incredible, magnificent and infinite. Now is a sea of possibility, a light wave of eternity, a glimpse into forever, a poignant droplet of time that exists only for us. Every moment is pregnant with choice, imagination, desire and countless opportunities. As much as possible, don’t rush from thing to thing, as I have been guilty of so many times. Feel and connect with the moment. Listen and watch for the signs. They are always there, always around us. Everything is a sign from the universe. Everything that happens happens for a reason, to teach and guide us, bring us closer to God. Every song, every person, every movie, every experience, it’s all for us. Listen and tune in and enjoy it. Forgive others when they trespass against you. This raises your vibration and allows you to live a happier life. Forgiveness is divine. Find it in your heart to thank those who trespass against you for they give you the opportunity to forgive. Forgiveness is a form of gratitude. Say the Lord’s prayer. You are forgiven too for all of your trespasses. We all have them, and it’s Ok. We are forgiven for being human, and we are loved deeply. 

Scientists theorize that in the beginning, the big bang created matter and anti-matter. They destroy each other upon contact, and yet somehow more matter managed to survive. They further speculate that matter particles called neutrinos could have been extremely light and small and also at times, gargantuan and heavy. The deciding factor of which they manifested as was their electrical charge. 

The two primary energies in the universe are love and fear. All emotions stem from those primary vibrations. Maybe what the scientists call neutrinos are those energies. Love and fear, two sides of the same coin, one is heavy, one is light. More matter was created than anti-matter because love conquers fear. Love is more powerful because it brings together rather than tears apart. It has a high vibration that is irresistible. Fear creates disharmony and discord. Love creates and attracts joy and ecstasy. If you had a choice, which would you choose? The fact is, you do. You always do. Every emotion stems from either love or fear, and you always have a choice of which option to take. That’s our free will. Fear will bring you down. Love will lift you up. Next time you have a negative emotion, whether it’s anger, jealousy, hatred, or aggravation, think about whether it could stem from a kind of fear. Could your jealousy really be a fear of not being good enough or a fear of being left out? Could your anger be a fear that someone doesn’t appreciate you enough or a fear of being alone? Could your hatred really be a fear that you’re misunderstood or doomed to fail? Hindsight is 2020 and sometimes it’s easier to see these underlying fears after the fact, yet if you practice asking yourself this question when you experience negative emotion, you’ll find it’s always there. Uncover it and take it out of the shadows. The fear is the real monster, not that person or situation. Acknowledge it and face it. Then fill the chasm of your heartbreak with love. See that person with kindness. Maybe they are hurting. Offer a consolation or even a gratitude. If you can’t do that yet, step away from it and do something kind for someone else. Extend love whatever way you can. Change the charge of the vibration. You have that power. You are a co-creator with the universe. You define your experience with it. The power of the universe is within you. 

By the way, because we are human, this is an ongoing process. I am imperfect and I struggle with anger, fear and everything that comes from it. Yet I’m starting to be more aware of how my ego and emotions can hold me back. By recognizing the fear and bringing it into the light and practicing choosing love, it raises my vibration, helps me be happier and just a better version of myself. Instead of having these negative emotions fester and paralyze me, I can start to use them to pivot and change my reality. They are opportunities now, not roadblocks.  

This is it. 
The growing, the discovering, the learning, the heartache, the soulache, this is what it is. Life. The meat. 
It's not over there. It's not someday. It's here, now. 
This is the beginning and the end.